If you ever see me speaking in public, freely with the best performance
keep in mind that i never stopped to achieve that simple thing
today i had terrible public speak, full of anxiety, full of out of script directions
i missed a lots of core details
and lost again
it’s not about lost
lost is not first and even not last, i’m okay with that
but it’s about having same issue again and again
something in mind is telling
“you can’t do that”, “you are not ready for it”, “you know nothing about it”
and silence in brain is what this moment is entirely killing
standing in front of people, and brain is not braining
WHY?
who knows
it’s only me who knows what battle i took to stand there, but what cost..
it’s time to rest.